Ambassador for God's Will

I sat in my seat stunned, listening to the woman on the other line giving me my last instructions for my job. "But I have plans" I said to myself. How can I build anything in debt? My storm that seemed to be settling was just gathering its strength. I shut my eyes tight, in tears, asking God, "Please don't forsaken me". As I disconnected the system from my computer, I sat in front of my desk in shock. Tears ran down my eyes, yet a black face greeted Chantel as she knocked on the door, and walked in. "Whats wrong?" she asked. I was afraid to say what had happened seconds ago. Inside, I repeated, "If I say it, I will speak it into existence."

"Jalisa"

"My job released me from my duties."

"What?"

Tears continued falling, but my face could not come to the present. Chantel the bedroom door.

"I am neither afraid or calm... I am shocked, but settle... My spirit is calm, but my heart is broken." The tone of my voice was stunt.

Chantel's voice was as tranquil as a mother's love when she told me to, "Pray". Again, I thank God that He gave me the opportunity to surround myself with friends who see things spiritually, walking this earth by faith and not by sight. I finally released the tears, and she joined me; we prayed that night for Jesus said in Matthew 18:20, " For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them."

That next morning, I got on my knees, thanking God for His covenant. I couldn't help but ask God for His mercy, and patience with me, "But I need Your help. Please bless me with your presence this morning, Heavenly Father as I study Your Word. Speak to my spirit, guide me through Your Holy Spirit within me. I fully submit to you, in obedience I commit to Your Will. Please bless me with Your wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, that I may receive, obtain, and be of witness to Your Word." God never fails me. I picked up where I left off yesterday, Nehemiah 5, and I smiled. "Thank You for Your peace and Joy Heavenly Father, in Jesus name. Won't You do it? Yea You will, do, and did." Nehemiah 5:1-5, The Jewish community complained about the debt they were in to their own brothers (Nehemiah 5:1).

"Nehemiah was so angry, he consulted with himself" (Nehemiah 5:6,7)

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"TEA TIME Ladies and Gentlemen"

I don't agree with Nehemiah consulting with himself. I feel as though His first move should have been to reach out to God. This was the time for Him to consult God in his next steps... Right? I mean, technically, I'm reading hoe God used him to rebuild Jerusalem. But am I thinking too far into this? Your comments are well appreciated.

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Nehemiah 5:6,7 Nehemiah consulted with himself and became angry, blaming themselves for the bicker debt between the Jewish community. He then assembled the debt collectors and gave a vernacular lashing (Nehemiah 5:8). .

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I love how Nehemiah stood against not just the heathens foul play, but also corrected his brothers too

I fell in love w/ Nehemiah's characteristics, such a God fearing man. The strength in the resistance to manifest his anger into constructive criticism so strong and powerful that he not only rebuild Jerusalem physically, but also the community mentally. Pay attention ladies, take heed gentlemen.

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Nehemiah 5:8-13 say, "8 And I said unto them, We after our ability have redeemed our brethren the Jews, which were sold unto the heathen; and will ye even sell your brethren? or shall they be sold unto us? Then held they their peace, and found nothing to answer.

9 Also I said, It is not good that ye do: ought ye not to walk in the fear of our God because of the reproach of the heathen our enemies?

10 I likewise, and my brethren, and my servants, might exact of them money and corn: I pray you, let us leave off this usury.

11 Restore, I pray you, to them, even this day, their lands, their vineyards, their oliveyards, and their houses, also the hundredth part of the money, and of the corn, the wine, and the oil, that ye exact of them.

12 Then said they, We will restore them, and will require nothing of them; so will we do as thou sayest. Then I called the priests, and took an oath of them, that they should do according to this promise.

13 Also I shook my lap, and said, So God shake out every man from his house, and from his labour, that performeth not this promise, even thus be he shaken out, and emptied. And all the congregation said, Amen, and praised the Lord. And the people did according to this promise." Nehemiah feared God out of love, and this type of integrity brought on a type of royal respect from all, even the Jewish debt collectors. Nehemiah 5:14-18 explains why he was respected; the characteristics of a God fearing man, a person who aligned their purpose, ultimate goals, with the Will of God. There is nothing... no one else behind the strength and power in that colloquial castigation! Nehemiah did not receive the attention and respect from the Jewish debt collectors and community because he looked good... But because of his faith in God. I realized reading thus far in Nehemiah, your faith in God creates confidence that is not boastful, or arrogant. It attracts people to love your presence because it brings heights of self-esteem they see themselves achieving. Only if they listen to God's Word, in obedience, will they then curve jealousy and connect with God.

Refreshed, I looked forward to the day. "Thank You Heavenly Father, for the opportunity to devote myself solely to Your Will, reconstruct my ultimate goal to align with Your Will and Word. Nehemiah ended chapter 5 with "Think upon me, my God, for good, according to all that I have done for this people." (Nehemiah 5:19)

I smiled... My life is just beginning.